Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Why I am not a Christian


"When the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?"

- Jesus Christ, (Luke 18:8)



I am not a christian.

I thought I was. But, it dawned on me recently that I am not, and I don’t think I ever was. The label “christian” has evolved through many cycles since it was first voiced at Antioch. By a label, I do not know what to call myself. I do not subscribe to names and badges because man and religion, ultimately, make a mockery of any nomenclature, no matter how innocently crafted. This much I do know:

I believe in God, the Father, Almighty, the Creator of heaven and earth and in Jesus Christ, His only Son, my Lord, Who was conceived by the Holy Spirit.

In its truest form, the term “christian” is supposed to mean “a follower of Christ”. It sounds simple enough, but how come then, that there is very little of Christ in christianity today? How is it that the image of the Christos is not etched on the face of the “modern faith”. Why, indeed, do people go to church to look for Christ but instead find the priest?

I am not one to criticize the church – that is not my quest. These questions are directed as much to me as they are to anyone who has also bent their knees at Calvary and cleansed themselves in the blood drawn from Emmanuel’s veins. I am only perturbed by the realisation that the more and more I read the gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, the less and less I see the nature of Jesus in the “modern church.”

Should someone go out there at high noon with a torch in their hand, walk the streets and point the torchlight in every direction, looking for Christ in men? Why has it come to this, that someone would require a torch in broad daylight to search for a follower of Christ? Are they that scarce now?

The torchlight would reveal a throng of people milling into buildings of worship, all clutching their bibles to their chest. Some of them have all kinds of religious paraphernalia pinned to their coat lapels and dresses. With the torch, you will see that they are christians, . . . but will you see Christ? – will you see the ChristosThe Anointed One?

And no, they are not the same – being a Christian and being Christlike are not the same thing at all – not in this age – not in the “modern church”. Being a christian is a label, a badge, more like a political party actually, . . . while being Christlike, is LIFE!

Was this what Jesus alluded to when He asked that thought-provoking question in the gospel:

“When the Son of Man returns, shall He find faith on earth?”

If being a christian means forming “clicks of spiritual brethren” in church who look down their noses at their fellow christians, because “those ones” are not spiritual enough, then, I am not a christian.

If a young lady, who in a moment of weakness, had premarital sex with a man and she is guilt-smitten and truly repents but still needing reassurance of God’s forgiveness, unburdens her heart to her pastor, . . . if being a christian means that the pastor then decides to “crucify her flesh so that her soul will be saved” by announcing her misdeed in church and making her sit through every service at the back of the church congregation in shame for 6 weeks, then, I am not a christian.

Why does the church shoot its wounded? Why do we beat a man or woman who is already down? God has forgiven the young lady but the christians will not.

When a minister of God engages in an adulterous affair and realizes his mistake and appeals to the Heavenly Assizes for mercy, if being a christian means that he is denied by his fellow ministers and the “church board” – each one trying to outdo the other at how quickly they can distance themselves from “a fallen man of God” instead of putting their arms around him and restoring his shaken faith, then, I am not a christian.

When a pastor is stripped of his position and sent packing at short order from the house the church rented for him, when he is for all practical purposes excommunicated from the church all because he “slipped and fell” even when the Court of Heaven has pardoned him – if this is what it means to be christian, then, I refuse to be called a christian.

Yes, he sinned. Yes, he slipped, and he fell. But, he has appealed to the Courts on High, and the Christos has thundered back a response:

“Your sins are forgiven you. Go and sin no more!”

The Ancient of Days has forgiven him, but the christians will not.

It is fashionable these days for christians and christian organizations to immediately deny any association with a minister who sins – we see it quite commonly. No sooner is a pastor caught in adultery, than you hear the “church board” and its affiliates downplaying his role or involvement in their organization. These christians do not require a Cock crowing, to time their denials anymore – they are experts at it now:

“I do not know the man!”

“I do not know the man!”

“I do not know the man!”

“I do not know the man!”

. . . . . and on and on it goes . . . . .

That will become their new chorus.

They forget in their narcissism and greed, the wisdom in the saying:

“There go I, but for the grace of God”

The pastor is on his own at the time of his greatest need – his fellow pastors look at him askance, cancelling all previous engagements with him – to them, he has become “a dirty man of God” and he is still regarded as such even when he has settled his accounts with Heaven.

“Let him find God’s love and forgiveness if he will, but we will never give him ours” is the christians’ attitude towards their former shepherd.

I am not a christian.

How can I be a christian, when to be one means that members of one denomination must see the members of another denomination as inferiors, rivals, or outright enemies?

I can not be a christian when the authority of the pulpit is used to bully and intimidate the congregation with supposedly “hot messages” instead of encouraging them and rebuking them IN LOVE if need be.

If being a christian means reasoning is snubbed and the intellect derided, whether overtly or covertly in a church because you are not permitted to think – because afterall, it is the pastor’s job to think and tell the congregation what to think, then I am not a christian.

If an unsaved lady who feels that her life is empty, decides to attend church because she is trying to seek and understand the Truth, but comes to every church service in her trousers, but she is constantly told by the “spiritual congregation” to “stop wearing trousers or to stop coming to that church!”. If this is what it means to be a christian, then I am definitely not one.

If christians can not accept the broken and the fallen, who else will?

If christians can not extend forgiveness to a pastor who “messes up”, even before he asks for it, then, who else will?

If christians cannot embrace the fallen man, or the fallen woman (who by the way, is already repentant), then how dare we defame the name of Christ by calling ourselves His followers.

It is an admirable age we live in – an age when we can reinvent anything – we have even succeeded in reinventing a christianity without the Christ!

What a piece of work christians are! – what a veritable bundle of unbridled egotism!

Alas, I tell you, the angels wonder – they wonder at christians, they wonder at the arrogance in an imperfect man, who mercilessly condemns another imperfect man.

I am not a christian.

I rest my case.

14 comments:

  1. "Why, indeed, do people go to church to look for Christ but instead find the priest?"

    If being a christian means forming “clicks of spiritual brethren” in church who look down their noses at their fellow christians, because “those ones” are not spiritual enough, then, I am not a christian.

    If being a christian means that the pastor then decides to “crucify her flesh so that her soul will be saved” by announcing her misdeed in church and making her sit through every service at the back of the church congregation in shame for 6 weeks, then, I am not a christian.
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    Very thought-provoking, and I'm with you on these issues.

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  2. Wow that is thought provoking indeed! Its so hard finding a Christlike institution that doesn't go by all that's mentioned, these days. Which begs the question why bother with organized religion?

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  3. hi Eyitemi, this is an honest post and what you said about christians being unable to accept their own brenthens when the fall short is so true. i think there is a lot of judgemental christians in the church these days, all they do is look for who to condemn instead of embracing each other in love but they are unaware that the world is observing how we so called christians treat one another especially when we do wrongs.
    i quote you 'If christians cannot embrace the fallen man, or the fallen woman (who by the way, is already repentant), then how dare we defame the name of Christ by calling ourselves His followers'
    it is well !!!
    God bless you loads

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  4. @Jaycee.... Have you heard of instances where each of the scenario I described above occurred?
    Does it not just "knock you out" how different christians are from Christ. When I read the four gospels, I can't help asking myself
    "Who is our master?"
    "Who is our example?"
    "Am I missing something?"

    @ Abi..... thanks for stopping by. I could not get to your blog by clicking on your name. I have always seen the church as the last resort for any desperate man. When believers start feeling more accepted anywhere else than in the church ... then you know something is not right.

    @ Rainyjoy...... it is strange, isn't it? You are more likely to find love, forgiveness and acceptance from a "good non-believer" than you would a christian. All ground is level at calvary, but nothing beats the isolation a believer might experience in church...... and life goes on you know..... it is just another day in church..... one of those things, like they say. Do you know that Gandhi once said

    "I love Christ but I despise christians because they are not like their master?"

    So you see, this has been going on for a while..... "it is just one of those things" they would say. In order words

    "The christian-show must go on"

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  6. "Yes, he sinned. Yes, he slipped, and he fell. But, he has appealed to the Courts on High"

    What I found the nail here is that Christians amongst ourselves practice a 'holier than thou' way of life that therefore questions whether we truly serve a merciful God. Is it other Christians' place to punish the misdeed of a fellow brother or sister? That's the question many christians need to answer.

    I particularly love this post because it brings back (personally) to me that christianity should be a relationship and not a religion or a click as you have rightly mentioned. The bible says "the disciples were first called Christians in Antioch".. The people that called them Christians, said they saw that they had the image of Christ; the likeness of Christ; the behaviours and way of life of Christ. Albeit, today's church, God really have to help us, if the world must continue calling us 'Christians'.

    Thanks Eyitemi, once again.

    - LDP

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  7. @LDP....Thank you too LDP. I think that we are too quick to condemn another, perhaps for the same things that we may be guilty of. It is the nature of man, you know.

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  8. Very true... people that often condemn others are likely doing the same things in the corner of their rooms somewhere... u r right.

    - LDP

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  9. Wow, we very well can be guilty of those condemnations at others. If only we could understand that it is by grace that any man can stand. The scripture goes take heed lest ye fall. Simply put no man can stand of his own strength, only His grace is sufficient help, so why condemn when we are only human.

    I love how the analogy goes being a christian is like being a member of a click (say PDP) but being Christ like is a different thing.
    Thanks for this. very thoughtful

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  10. @ Kennisblegad..... Thank you for your comment. I have noticed that "fellow christians" are usually more likely to throw stones at each other. Of course, they will never do it screaming and shouting but with an air of "spiritual finesse"

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  11. 'christianity' demystified. VEry thotful, i daresay...

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  12. I came to your blog after reading your discus with Bisi Kuku. Your thoughts are interesting and challenging.

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  13. Thanks Frances. I was unable to access you blog page. Do you have one?

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  14. @Eyitemi. Wow! Wow! It's amazing when you find someone who fleshes out your unspeakable thoughts with words that suits. I thought i was the only one pondering this. Thanks brother :)

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